Let this go

On the L train, thinking about a friend who I love a lot and who I've recently found out is a different person. So this was inspired by Paramore's "Let this Go"

I don't even know you
anymore.
For so long I was afraid.
Afraid to tell you that
the lips I once knew as mine
felt foreign.
She's been there
and she's done that.
While I was here
thinking of how it's supposed to be.
That's not the way that it's supposed to be.
For so long I was afraid
to tell you that I don't know you.
To be alone because I know
that once I say it,
it'll be true.
And it will be over.
But it already is.