Maybe..about..someone?

06-24
The possibilities seem endless from the
skyscrapers that I live my life on.
You came like a quiet storm
slowly gaining momentum as you saw interest,
taking my life by surprise.
I find myself smiling more
as the days progress.
Dreams I had long ago abandonded
resurrect without a struggle.

06-25
Infiltrated quietly,
you are now a permanent landmark on my mind.
I dared myself not to think of you
and I lost.
Lost my inhibitions.
Lost my mind.
The funniest thing happens when I think of you,
I smile.
As I write this, I bite my cheek,
trying to resist and fight the good fight
of the Amazon woman.
But then I think of your laugh...

Work in progress

This one I had been working on for like a week. I started out with a few lines. And then I decided not to finish it exactly. I'm not sure if it's done yet but...this is what I have so far. It was inspired by a friend who's in the hospital and...shook our worlds.

The tragedies of this world
surround me like these 4 walls.
We were invincible for a while,
unaffected by the misery that was hidden from us.
So much time we spent worrying
about problems that in the end
mattered only then.

We've been slapped in the face with
reality's overpowered hand.
That hand that you can't escape.
The sunlight that had once illuminated
our days has suddenly been blocked
by the hand that rules all.
The conundrums of our lives beat so loudly
I can't hear anything else.

Just as things pick up in one place,
in another it spirals downward.
This is our lives from now on.
There's no escaping it.
The problems that we create for ourselves,
engulf us in this mad world.
Because we made them,
we must now face them.

Our denial of reality
makes us hate it even more...

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Yeah definitely not done.

Updates

Here are a few that I've written in the last couple of weeks...

06-10
I had to let my tears dry,
not too long ago.
Sitting here observing my life,
I see only the cruelties.
The things that won't let me live.

06-12
The battle of right and wrong.
My body yearns for one thing,
but my mind insists no.
The calamity of the world we live in
drives me to the point of insanity.
I look up and feel vertigo
as the world keeps on spinning,
whether I'm breathing or not.
My body aches and calls to him
but my conscious won't let me.
He's not the one, therefore its not right.
But what if the one already slipped away?
Or will never show up?
Then I will be left shriveled.

06-14
It's happened too many times
felt that way a million times...
too many.
This isn't how it's supposed to be.
Big Riot.
I blew my fuse.
The devil is gone
and according to Bjork,
There's no use of falling in love.

Let this go

On the L train, thinking about a friend who I love a lot and who I've recently found out is a different person. So this was inspired by Paramore's "Let this Go"

I don't even know you
anymore.
For so long I was afraid.
Afraid to tell you that
the lips I once knew as mine
felt foreign.
She's been there
and she's done that.
While I was here
thinking of how it's supposed to be.
That's not the way that it's supposed to be.
For so long I was afraid
to tell you that I don't know you.
To be alone because I know
that once I say it,
it'll be true.
And it will be over.
But it already is.