Train belligerence

I'll tell you why this one feels like my real first. Never had I met a man who's soul matched mine. A man who instantly swept me off my feet and love just sprang in. The others...it wasn't love but infatuation. This was the first man who I barely knew but made me love and trust him with just a smile and a hug and a kiss and his revealing himself to me. Insecurities and worries plagued me out of experience but soon I found out that this is like nothing I've ever experienced. And I really didn't see an end in sight...ever..we had already established that the rest of our lives will be spent together. Diamond bracelets, thousands of shoes and a home in every time zone. But now times are hard and you got weak. Now there's no time for you and me.

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Never have
I ever been with a man who's caresses made me feel that his touch was not something obligatory but something that I deserved and should have been there before I knew that love is pain. You were the one that everyone- including Belle and Cinderella- told me about. The one I loved now and later. Come on in...every thing's ready for you.

They call him Common Sense for a reason...

Time revolve
we fell in love as crazy as Nas and them
broads were textin
cuz I stop calling them
I met the parents
watch the game with her father and
questions of marriage
and I start dodging them
what happen to me
happens to lots of men
get deep in love
and then your needing some oxygen
as far as wives I was thinking like Solomon
she said "there you go, breakin my heart again!"

-Common

Breaking my heart 08/03

Fear and panic of losing the one person of the opposite sex who makes me feel whole, beautiful, and worthy. This dependency has never existed in me before and fear settles. Irresistible love. Unloathing, unintentional caresses from a man who is undeniably the uninsured uncensored love I'd been waiting for a long time. Unidentifiable flawlessness that only I can but welcome with an open heart.

The unclassified love that is being created one step at a time. The unselfish love this is professed along with the unsettling patience that must be had. The unbelievable way that you are and I miss you and I love you and you...you...you...

Shelter me, you love me, you caress me, you protect me, you stand by me, you...you..you..you...it's always been you that my heart has waited to profess its love to, it's waited, waited, waited so badly. Cobwebs and brick walls intended to protect this tender organ have been destroyed in a matter of days; effortlessly by a man who I barely even knew. You awoke me inside and took my breath away now please don't let this die.

This beautiful philosophy we've created called...us.